Open Water Swimming
I hadn’t been in the water for months. During
the winter, I swam indoors, where the water is fine. But I am sick of chlorine.
The toxicity makes my nose itch, ruins my hair and as a perfume is anything but
alluring.
I am entertaining the idea of a 5k Lake
Swim where I’d join my two daughters, claiming solidarity in competitive
swimming. A three plus mile swim is no joke so I need some training.
At Clay County Rec Park, my favorite spot
is a quiet cove area. Never seeing any fisherman, I figure there is no danger
of a hook and eye. Adjacent to the bay is the fairly populated swimming area
roped off by orange PVC piping. About 30 yards beyond are buoys warning boaters
to heed the boundaries. Rob plans a three mile run to the dam and he worries
about me alone in the cove. “What if you get a cramp?” “I’d rather you swim
where there are a few people,” he says. “Well, ok, I say.” As we venture over
to the sandy beach I count the folks who would serve as lifeguards. There are two
skinny bikinis with dry hair lying on metallic mats. Then there is a couple riding
herd on toddlers. The dad is a big fella, (a landlubber) with plenty of fishy white skin and
tattoos. Yea, I’m at my own risk. I’ll
just stick close to the moors and look up to make sure I’m clear of propellers.
Rob watches me for a minute then turns to
start his own workout. I tip toe down to the shore kicking off flip flops. The
terrain is that rusty rocky clay and ant piles mined throughout. I step
gingerly into the lake and look out, thinking it doesn’t look too murky.
We’ve had a lot of rain, and that’s a good diluting factor. My ears are plugged
to discourage a foreign flesh eating bacteria I’ve read about on the internet.
Swimming is primal. You know, like when
you realize you have to face your fears—my most challenging being the chilly
temperature of Lake Chatuge. But I’m committed now. I’m shaved, suited and
goggled. There is no wriggling out of this Speedo® now.
So I dive in. Ok, it will get better, my
teeth chattering. I’m good. I paddle out to the first buoy on the left. It’s ok
after 25 yards or so. I realize that I should’ve worn a cap—my bangs already
streaming into my face. I fight a bit of choppy current and seek rhythm in the
front crawl.
Swimming has got to be the loneliest sport
in the world. Even more so than running. My senses submerge in an underwater
think tank. Scenery is limited, hearing is muffled—there is no dialogue. Come
to think of it, what business does an extrovert of my caliber have to do with
swimming, or even writing, for that matter?!
But again, it’s basic. It goes way back to
where I started, in the womb and then the Atlantic. There is no audience, no referee, no
heckling. Just the water and me. I need and crave it. A lot connects between
the ears as arms syncopate with legs. Yea, under the surface, there is nothing
wrong with talking to myself.
I kick hard to work my core and legs. I
see things, like floaters. I can’t decide if it’s my 47 year old vision, you
know those veiny spidery things that you see if you press on your eyeballs real
hard? We used to do that when we were kids. Maybe it’s lake weed? I don’t know
and it is unnerving. I can’t see too far below or ahead. Long gone are the days
of swimming with sharks or alligators in Florida. Now monsters are only
symbolic, sometimes reality being harder to reckon with than actual sea
predators or toothy green reptiles. A picture of a giant catfish lurks in my
imagination. I’ve heard they hang out way down deep.
I’ve swum 30 minutes. I take a breath and
pivot my face back towards the bottom. I see a dark mass and splash in startled
fear. Although it’s only a shadow, I say aloud, “Lord, please protect me out
here, I say.” “Protect my kids, too.”
My kids are never far away from the
forefront. I think about two funerals within the past two weeks. They were classmates
of my kids. One was killed in car accident, no seatbelt. The other lost his
life in an accidental drowning.
Ok, one more perimeter. Rob waves as I do
the breaststroke gathering my bearings. I glide to shore, walk out, tuck
everything in and grab my towel.
I consider the pending 5k swim. It doesn’t
seem like I have much choice. If I could just hurdle over this, things will
settle down. I’ll swim head on. Maybe it will help me brave the waves of real
life. Lord knows I’ve faced more difficult races.
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